Preparation day arrived this warm June day, but I didn’t get out to the porch until late afternoon. It is a shock since I have spent the last so many days inside the airconditioned comfort of my studio, but I have been reading where time in a sauna is beneficial to geezers and dementia. Porch sitting in central Texas in June is much like a sauna, so here I am, albiet not really feeling that my impending senility has been halted all that much.
Some travails of aging are very difficult to discuss, and today I shan’t. But the time when others will control our daily lives is approaching faster than I would like, and many things enter my mind. What will happen to the dogs is a biggie for me. We mostly have rescue dogs other than ‘Becca da Beagle. Annie is the oldest of the lot and has socialization issues. I doubt that she would be adoptable even if she was younger, but she wouldn’t be at this stage in life. I am thinking about starting regular donations to an aging dog rescue with the stipulation that they take care of Annie, no matter how difficult that would be.
And Jenna, another rescue, is a real love. But she has seizures and she sheds. And she is big.
Tic, the youngest addition will probably adjust just about anywhere, but he also has trust issues.
And ‘Becca, though cute, is getting up there. We raised her as a pup and got her from a pet store. We had our reasons, so please be gentle with us!
Usually budgies aren’t hard to get rid of as long as you have a cage for them, so I don’t worry so much about Kippur da Budgie. But we didn’t hand train her so that makes it a bit harder to take care of.
I know that if the state comes and finds us incapable of taking care of ourselves, they will simply call animal control, and euthanize the dogs. That breaks my heart, but given the terrible state that all of us are born into, it might be the most humane choice.
Wonderful pre-shabbat musings, no?
But just for this day, it is sufficient. The bills are paid, the income comes in, the mocking bird scolds me from the pecan tree, the gravel truck speeds by on my once quiet country lane hauling road material for another housing development down the road, the sun came up, and it will sit.
Soon Snookums will call me to the Shabbat meal, and I put aside the days evils long enough to chronicle the day.
My sister just sent me a piece of family history that boggles the mind.
My uncle Jim was an engineer who help build the first atomic bombs dropped in Japan. Shortly after the war, he went to Japan and met a Swedish born Japanese woman and brought her back to the states to marry her.
She became pregnant, but the animosity of the US Government was still high, and because of her Japanese heritage, refused both her citizenship and marriage license. She returned to Japan where her daughter was born. But my family had no idea of her fate, and scoured internment camps and wrote many letters to authorities in both Japan and the US.
But it was a tragic series of events that followed. The mother died, and the daughter was raised in the slums by her nanny.
Here is the AP story of that tragedy. I am trying to contact my niece now …
In New Mexico, they even had a Mary Ann Vaughn Day …
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As told by the light of the cooking fire . . .
Then man became a lump of clay encased animal skin rather than the light that formerly covered him. He no longer tended a garden, but rather plowed and planted in the hardscrabble outside the gates, and the breath of the divine no longer enlivened him. His life was now in blood, and when his blood was spilled, his life drained back into the ground from which he was formed.
Instead of tending the plants the Divine had sown, he now sowed seeds from an alien and barren world. Whereas the Divine watered with a mist that sprang from the ground, man laboriously watered his garden with water drawn from meager rivers and deep wells. The Divine once fed man from a fertile garden, but now man began to kill and eat the very animals he once named and ruled over.
Man never forgot the garden, however, and strove over the æons to reenter Paradise, but the way was shut. Fierce beings guarded the gates with powers far beyond the abilities of man, and the way to the gates was forgotten in the ages that followed.
But the Divine never forgot man. A gate guarded by a narrow and precipitous path leading man back to the Divine and eternal life was built in the wilderness. If a man followed the path he would be admitted into a new heaven, and a new earth. Man would shed the skin of an animal, and be once again covered with brilliance of the Divine. The breath of the Divine would replace the blood spilled on the ground and revive him.
But many will reject the path, preferring to build a path of their own choosing. They will shake their fists at the Divine and those who are on the path leading to his gate, and they will try to kill them. Their end is their world, and when they die, their blood will be returned to the ground to await a final day when they shall be called before the Divine to retell their misdeeds.
Sunday dawned early as Mr. Bladder rudely interrupted my peaceful slumber at the break of dawn. The first day of the week, or The Lord’s Day by some traditions. But for me, every morning begins the same with a staggering walk down the corridor to my studio with a coffee cup in my hand if Snookums has made the coffee, or empty handed if she hasn’t. It won’t be long before she delivers a warm cup to me in those circumstances.
It is an odd morning in that the Celtic station I often listen to is playing Christmas carols. I like them though I have a bit of a problem with much of the theology surrounding the season. But some of the most worshipful music ever written was composed around the celebration of Christmas. The morning music is a sop to Kippur da Budgie. I much prefer absolute silence in the mornings, but parakeets need noise or they grow depressed.
Weekends have become my time to be the family chef, apart from dinner on Saturday evening. We try to have a one pot meal on Friday evening that is rewarmed on Saturday to sort of keep with the tradition of resting on that day. So, part of the mornings musings need to focus on brunch. Waffles have become de rigueur, with the type of waffle being the variable. Today I think it will be blueberry Belgian waffles with whipped cream. Perhaps some orange sections if I am up to peeling them, or perhaps not. If not, probably some V8 juice.
I am finally caught up on the mowing, hopefully for the year. But with all the moisture and warmth, that is not a given. I have mowed as late as Thanksgiving in the past in mild years. I am hoping to get some field rye sowed before it gets too cold so that there will be greenery in early spring. Field rye is inexpensive, about $20 a bag from the Co-Op, and one bag covers the field nicely. The rye burns off early enough to let the bermudagrass thrive during the hot summers and provides a nice change from a dark green to a light green as the year unfolds.
So, onward to brunch preps …
“Thou shalt write each and every day. The great, and the mundane, thou shalt write of it”
I missed a day of journaling, and didn’t have a valid excuse to skip a day. Playing with my virtual choo-choo’s is not a valid excuse. They are a reward for obedience, not an excuse for disobedience. However, these are my rules, not God’s, so I choose the punishments and rewards. So, what is a suitable punishment for slacking? I will have to think on that some.
It is a gorgeous view out the window. I opted to write on the studio PC this morning rather than the laptop because the keyboard is more familiar. But the water barrel waterfall is gurgling in the deep shade of the pecan and acacia tree, backlit by the yellow sun on green grass. It is almost a springtime view. But without the birdcalls, it is a bit creepy.
Tic, the latest canine addition to the family, is slowly overcoming his skittishness, and loves waking me in the mornings. But the rule is to wait until my eyes are open before jumping on my bed. He doesn’t understand the fullness of that rule, however, and a mere fluttering of the eyelids is proof enough to him that I am awake, and he can roll on me and bite me in pure celebration of the gift of a new day.
I haven’t gone through the newsfeeds yet this morning. The incessant drumbeat of hurricanes, floods, earthquakes and crazed killers is numbing my compassion. I can only observe a tiny amount of evil before I am overwhelmed by it and I become stoic, no longer reacting to the horror. I know when I finish this I will go check out the latest comments on the comments that were commented on. Not only are we informed of evil, we are tossed into its foul waters via video clips and the wailing of grief stricken survivors.
So, this little moment of banality is a blessing to me. I shall slowly sip two full cups of coffee and finish this before peeking into the maelstrom. I can hardly wait.
Perhaps I’ll punish my slacking by performing one extra chore today. It isn’t like we ever have all the chores done. The job jar overfloweth. Perhaps I should start cleaning out the old pickup truck to get it ready to sell. There goes the last vestige of my virility. A man without a pickup is a just a yankee occupying a house. But life does go on, and one must turn loose of the torch or become consumed by it. This latest killer of many sort of took the glamor away of going out in a blaze of glory.
But then, there is the ever urgent need to mow. Perhaps instead of sorting, cleaning and putting away tools, I’ll mow the west side. Maybe.
It will all get sorted out when the coffee pot is empty. Maybe.
“Thou shalt write each and every day. The great, and the mundane, thou shalt write of it”
Another damp but mild morning in my adopted home. Moderate breezes shake the mists of rain from the leaves and eaves of our modest homestead.
Tonight is Kol Nidre. An interesting opening night ceremony ushering in Rosh HaShannah, or Yom Truah. Kol Nidre is not found in the Biblical and has been surrounded by a lot of controversy. Essentially one asks God to release them from careless personal vows that they made the previous years which cannot be kept. Some anti-Semites have used it in the past to say that it means that any agreements with a Jew will not be kept. But factually, this rite does not absolve the Jew from legal contracts and public vows.
I don’t observe the rite formally, but the night is a time of personal introspection, a review of the year gone by, and if amends need to be made, to make them. I am not a big fan of symbolic gestures, a so I don’t offer selichote, a general request to pardon my boorishness. At this time of life I am not going to change. But if a particular offense rises to my consciousness, I will contact the offended party and attempt to set the offense right.
As with most observances, this one starts at sundown, so other than reminding myself that this evening is a time of reflection, the day continues on normally.
In retirement, there isn’t usually much of note of interest to others. So the days are separated by the weather, Shabbats and holy days. And these seem to come by with ever increasing tempo. It is a bit unsettling. I have accomplished so little in the time I was allotted.
But I shrug my shoulders, take another sip of coffee, and think that tomorrow is another day.